| 02.21.2005 - 09.25.2005
thanx for the good memories...
09.30.2005
a gift from heaven... |
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| Yah to summer!!!  |
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| i find myself easily angered lately, not good...maybe cuz i feel really stressed with apps and deliberation coming up within hours and days...and i'm just here trying to finish my crap...and it's not even like i've got major midterms or anything like that to worry about...but still, i feel so unmotivated, so depressed all the time...half the time i don't even know wat i'm doing and the other half just get wasted consciously...
i tell myself never to have high expectations of people because i hate being disappointed, i tell myself to be forgiving, be patient, be quiet and suck it up...but inside, i feel this pressure, this pain...i dunno how much longer i can hold it in...i am NOT HAPPY...and constantly irritated or worried about things...
I miss the old days, i miss my old friends whom i never get to see anymore, let alone hangout with...i dunno why...but i'm all of a sudden SO SICK of AAA at this point...i wish i can just take a day off and go play games with some good old friends...i mean...i'ver seriously lost some good friends because of it...and others have fallen far away from me...but at the same time, i have a vision...i feel like there's so much more that i want to contribute...so much i can do to make other people's life better, more fun, more interesting...only if i had more time and energy....
but NO...must do my agenda cuz my meeting is within hours...i need a break...
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| socal was fun...
norcal is boring as hell... -___- |
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| WOW...haven't TOUCHED my xanga...no no...zhanga in like FOREVER ..muahahah, but i'm still alive, falling behind in school, busy with AAA, but also having a freaken good time with my LOVELY cabinet and AWESOME committee...i <3 uoo ALL so much. but must catch up on school next week, my hell weeks of midterms are coming up...booooo...haha...alright, hope everyone is doing well, i'm sorrie if i've been so busy that i didn't get to hang out with uoo, yes UOO, as much, but gimme a call, i'd LOVE to hangout ^ ^
for now...peace out
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